Always hope to achieve something new everyday, even just a small achievement yet it is still something new. However, it's not that easy to do so. Efforts and determination are required. Just hope that I could do this one day :)
Weren't being active on blogger for such a long time! Checked out some blogs just now. People are spending their time wisely and achieving something all the time. Reflectively I see myself wasting time, being non productive, achieving nothing, learning nothing everyday. I feel sinful and yet I don't know how to make a change. Could not find a way to be inspired and motivated. Life is getting meaningless.
Somehow, I felt a sense of happiness after seeing friends are having good and prosperity life all the time. At least, they live better than me. Seeing people who came into my life and left, I have already numb I guess. I told myself not to feel anything - sadness, madness or loneliness. Living with this concept may be a little meaningless but this avoids myself getting hurt. I am just being protective to myself. I forgot whether someone said to me or I gone through some notes that is it my own problem that cause me having a little number of friends? Think about it. Yes I guess so but what to do. This is me and I could not change anything.
Awhile ago, my mom said to me, "Have a plan on what you want to achieve before 25 years old. Owns a car? Having the ability to buy whatever you want? Having how much savings? and so on". What she said bothers me a lot. I have realized that I am achieving nothing and do not have a target on my future. I am the one who plans before taking any actions but usually do not stick to the plan, hence I always think I do not need a plan. Nevertheless, she has a point. Still, I do not have a target so far. Will figure it out some day.
这篇文章花了蛮长的时间来完成，虽然短但已经把我最近所想的，所面对的写完出来。可是，什么都没领悟到。只能告诉自己，再接再厉，继续努力，船到桥头自然直。
