WHEN CLOSE FRIENDS BECOME STRANGERS

原本很好朋友的关系因为一封信息而出现了瑕疵。

暂时复原不了，原谅不了。

友谊，一碰就碎，就是那么不堪一击。多年朋友白当了，到最后留下了疑问：“你是谁？”。

LIFE IS HARD

在这夜深人静的夜晚里（也没多夜深啦，才11点多），我来写心情了！ :) 分类写呗。

1） 最近和失去联络的朋友亲密起来了 （我是指朋友的亲密）。不是多心，一要好，就变得超级好；一没联络，就真的会长期不联络。 已经试过很多次了，所以在想这一次也会不会一样重蹈覆辙。多少次告诉自己不要在乎了，但却没法控制自己。真的很讨厌。

2） 眼看朋友一个一个的离开，真的很怕会剩下自己一人。当然也替他们开心，只是有点寂寞而已。

3） 心脏好像稍微不强壮了，有时突然会跳得很快，有时上气不接下气。但还死不了 :)

4） 还是一句老话，我在乎别人多过于别人在乎我。

HAIRSPRAY THE BROADWAY MUSICAL

Anyone knows about Hairspray The Broadway Musical?

Yes, thanks to my friend for giving me this opportunity to watch this awesome musical play. We went for the most expensive seats which cost RM590.

The songs they sang are great! Audiences could easily get attached to the songs and play. I wanted to shout "WOAHHHHH" but I tried really hard to stop myself although the aunties next to me were very hyper and laughing nonstop. *Nakjagaimagesikit* :P The props they used are fantastic! I bet the designers had given his/her best to produce all the props. Overall, it worth the price. (Y)

NOBODY KNOWS ME, INCLUDING MYSELF.

Always hope to achieve something new everyday, even just a small achievement yet it is still something new. However, it's not that easy to do so. Efforts and determination are required. Just hope that I could do this one day :)

Weren't being active on blogger for such a long time! Checked out some blogs just now. People are spending their time wisely and achieving something all the time. Reflectively I see myself wasting time, being non productive, achieving nothing, learning nothing everyday. I feel sinful and yet I don't know how to make a change. Could not find a way to be inspired and motivated. Life is getting meaningless. 

Somehow, I felt a sense of happiness after seeing friends are having good and prosperity life all the time. At least, they live better than me. Seeing people who came into my life and left, I have already numb I guess. I told myself not to feel anything - sadness, madness or loneliness. Living with this concept may be a little meaningless but this avoids myself getting hurt. I am just being protective to myself. I forgot whether someone said to me or I gone through some notes that is it my own problem that cause me having a little number of friends? Think about it. Yes I guess so but what to do. This is me and I could not change anything.

Awhile ago, my mom said to me, "Have a plan on what you want to achieve before 25 years old. Owns a car? Having the ability to buy whatever you want? Having how much savings? and so on". What she said bothers me a lot. I have realized that I am achieving nothing and do not have a target on my future. I am the one who plans before taking any actions but usually do not stick to the plan, hence I always think I do not need a plan. Nevertheless, she has a point. Still, I do not have a target so far. Will figure it out some day.

 这篇文章花了蛮长的时间来完成，虽然短但已经把我最近所想的，所面对的写完出来。可是，什么都没领悟到。只能告诉自己，再接再厉，继续努力，船到桥头自然直。

变质

这几天好情绪化。
很容易就眼泪满眶的，想哭。
可能是因为最近的事情吧。
朋友变质了，不像以前腻在一起，有时也无法商量。
累了累了，不想努力下去了。
不舒服。