LIFE IS HARD

在这夜深人静的夜晚里（也没多夜深啦，才11点多），我来写心情了！ :) 分类写呗。

1） 最近和失去联络的朋友亲密起来了 （我是指朋友的亲密）。不是多心，一要好，就变得超级好；一没联络，就真的会长期不联络。 已经试过很多次了，所以在想这一次也会不会一样重蹈覆辙。多少次告诉自己不要在乎了，但却没法控制自己。真的很讨厌。

2） 眼看朋友一个一个的离开，真的很怕会剩下自己一人。当然也替他们开心，只是有点寂寞而已。

3） 心脏好像稍微不强壮了，有时突然会跳得很快，有时上气不接下气。但还死不了 :)

4） 还是一句老话，我在乎别人多过于别人在乎我。

Do it for your PRIDE

突然想写文章，平时也有想写文章的冲动，但往往在我真的写的时候就会忘了我其实要写些什么。今天就不迟疑的写，尽情地写吧！:)

还有一个多月就是我的生日了。每一年，我最期待的日子不是新年，中秋还是圣诞，是我的生日。今年当然也不例外，特别的是掺杂了别的感觉。总觉得，过了二十就很快就三十了，而我好像什么事都没做到。

曾经有多很多理想，或许现在还有，可是都没实现过。看见别人做到我想做的事，真的很羡慕。自己却啥都没有。有时会恨自己，恨自己为什么那么胆小，那么没自信， 那么没用。可是这到头来也改变不了什么。有让自己大胆些，也有成功过，可是有些事情就是不够胆量踏出第一步。明明就知道如果不勇敢地做些什么，就不会有改变，自己就是一直在原地踏步，然而就是不够动力和勇气。

我一直都在错过。。。

You can be the greatest

You can be the best

You can be the King Kong banging on your chest

You could beat the world

You could beat the war

You could talk to God, go banging on his door

You can throw your hands up

You can beat the clock

You can move a mountain

You can break rocks

You can be a master

Don't wait for luck

Dedicate yourself and you gonna find yourself

Sitting in the hall of fame
And the world's gonna know your name
Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame

Do it for your people, Do it for your pride, How you ever gonna know if you never even try?

Photo Shooting Session

Had a photo shooting session with le friends - Joyce & Jia Yi. When I say photo shooting session, I mean the real well planned photo shooting session with locations, theme, clothes, hairstyles ready. Nottheplayplayone. It would be my first real photo shooting. I wasn't really let people take me as a model. Camwhore I know la :P That's probably because I have low self confidence. Not saying that now I am having HIGH self confidence but I am trying to change my thinking and stand out more. No more standing/hiding behind people. Overall, that was fun. I enjoyed it pretty well. Joyce was the core photographer who took Jia Yi's and my photos while I was the assistant photographer(?) who took Joyce's photos. When the moment the photographer compliment on the outcome, yes the feeling is real good :D So just stay tuned for the photos! ;)

Transparency

Do I look transparent? Why can't they see me? This is f*cking me off. Am I really that not worth appreciated by the people? Always feel so fed up with this matter.

Lesson learned: Not everyone notice you even you're standing right in front of them. Not everyone treat you like how you treat them even though you treat them with all your heart. Not everyone appreciate your effort on helping them.

FML.

于是长大了以后。。。

【点击链接】谢和弦--于是长大了以后 


词曲：谢和弦


於是長大了以後
你發現聖誕節 沒有聖誕老公公
於是長大了以後
你發現吳剛嫦娥 都不住在月球
於是長大了以後
你發現王子公主 居然也有在陪酒
於是長大了以後
你發現課本裡面教的學的 都只能當參考用

於是長大了以後 有些事你非得要經歷搞懂
長大了以後 不想懂也要懂
認命的接受 不認命也接受 只是受殤還受用

於是長大了以後 我們都跟那現實做了朋友
忘記了單純天真 其實才是你的摯友
卻沒人能夠 卻沒人能夠 躲得過

原來這就是登大人 原來這就是社會黑暗
原來這就是小漢時候 整天夢呀夢呀夢
原來這就是登大人 大漢了後才知挫哩等
原來三分天註定 七分靠打拼 愛拼才會贏


“「你長大了以後，想要做什麼呢？」小時候我們喜歡編織夢想，現在我們學會了認知現實，微笑和眼淚，絕對是成長之旅，最真實的紀念品。
於是長大了以後，我們都和現實做了朋友，卻也更懂得，珍惜單純天真的自己。” 

--- AsiaMuseEntertainment

小时候，每个人都希望可以快高长大，

恨不得下一秒就变大人，

觉得做大人很好，

什么事都可以做，

不需要怕这个怕那个。

但有几个所谓的大人不会想要回到过去，

做那个，单纯，可爱，没烦恼，吃饱就睡，一哭就有人疼，的小孩子呢？

‘你长大了以后，

想要做什么呢？’

有几个是真正清楚自己长大了以后要做什么？

于是终于长大了，

却很想变回小孩。

现实的生活让人透不过气。

再也不允许出现当初的单纯天真，

现实的社会只会认为拥有这所谓的单纯，天真，

是蠢的。

于是终于长大了，

很多小时候不需要明白的事，都得清楚了解。

不管甘心与否，

都必须接受。

你终于明白，

以前‘想要快点长大’的想法，是有多么的愚蠢。

“原來這就是登大人 原來這就是社會黑暗 

原來這就是小漢時候 整天夢呀夢呀夢” 。。。

自卑

莫名而强烈的自卑感，
让我错过许多许多。

Nothing.

I felt nothing.
Plain.
Colourless.
Peace.
Nothing.

Recent Update

Long time never update. Life is kinda busy these days and it makes me really tired. Hope to reduce my burden but it seems like I am not allowed to do so. That's alright, I will try to cope with that. But sometimes, I just can't. Not that I don't want, I give up or I am frustrated, it's just because of the environment. I don't publicize my reason because I don't feel necessary to let you know. I can give you my best but in return, I expect fully understanding from you.

Valentine's

情人节，在家里过 :)

Holidays Gotcha! :P

Holidays are bored. But I would like to have holidays rather than having endless classes. This sounds I am a lifeless person. But :P, I love it this way. While I am having holidays, I can do whatever I want. I do what I like; Do preparation for my dream; Do everything based on my mood. Yes, I love it this way :D

If i ever live everyday like my last day, I've been in jail right now :)

I feel happiness living with my lifestyle :D

Shopping mends my sadness

7 clothes & 3 shoes

for only RM 240!

at Kenanga Wholesale Mall

You would definitely like to grab a few pieces!

An awesome place to shop! <3

:D

Yes, 

shopping did mend my sadness.

I've forgotten about the sadness you gave to me.

How I hope that I would have the chance to shop everyday,

so that I could forget about you for few hours.

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New hair cut

Say Hi to the brand new Sierra C :)

love the new hair cut! <3

2012

Gonna live a better life from 2012 onwards!

Happy New Year peeps :)

Happy New Year to you.

Ending 2011, welcoming 2012 :)

2011


1) Enrolled into Taylor's University Lakeside Campus - Foundation in Communication
2) Produced few videos with the gang
3) Finished 2 assignments in a day
4) First time drove in the middle of the night, 4a.m
5) First time drove to Sepang Gold Coast
6) Managed to survive after driving here and there
7) Knew awesome friends
8) Cut short hair !!!
9) Lived happily :)
10) Ending 2011 with happiness <3

2012

1) Live a better life
2) Try new things
3) Enjoy my life
4) Be stronger and tougher
5) Make my blogshop more splendid
6) Make more money
7) Shopping here and there
8) Diet
9) Get a boyfie <3
10) Laugh out loud xD

Lappie is back!

I am backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Super excited now :DDD Had my lappie back! Indescribable feeling!!!! Excitement, happiness, thankfulness and all other positive feelings! It's like FINALLY. I waited for so long. FUHHHHHHHHHHHH xD

Short Updates

I feel so sorry for ignoring my blog so long :( Am having a long break now, going to class soon. Just wanted to update a short post. As usual, project is on its way and it goes pretty well and smooth :D
It will be fun and success! x))) Bought a camera, Canon EOS 550 :D but unfortunately, I have no time to go out for a photowalk or something. So sad so bad :'( 


Current plan is to do more handmade stuff to improve my skills so that I can work for my dream more easily in the future! ;)


That's all I guess! Take care and have a nice day! :))) <3

Heng Zhi Sam,

I MISS YOU <3

I am back!

Mushi mushi, sorry for abandoned my blog for so long. Lazy to update by using Ipad. Am quite hyper today, "Everyday I am shuffling" x) I am having the last half an hour of 6 hours break now, so i decide to blog a little bit of myself. My projects have to stop for a period as I am really busy with my studies. Exam is coming yet assignments are killing me softly. 4 assignments due in a week. Can you imagine that? I have to divide myself into several parts to revise and to do 4 different annoying assignments. GAHHHH.

I have a lot to share but do not know where to start. Were feeling unhappy these days. Will talk about it next time (to my best friends <3).

Last but not least, I think I am a little bit into you :)

That's all for now! Bye :D

Loves,

Sier

"I can" is more important than "I.Q"

Hello there :) kinda fine these days or should I say... Not feeling anything/already used to the feeling I used to have all the time?

Actually, I don't feel happy at all studying mass comm now. Happy, friends' love; Unhappy, dislike, slightly towards hate what I am doing now. I feel so insecure now; I can't feel myself; I am so not me; I feel like I am forcing myself to do something I don't really like.

Instead, I feel sorry too. Sorry to give up halfway, but no choice. I can't force myself to do something I don't like. Yes or No, no such thing as Yes & No to me. I might not be the perfect one to you, but please don't compare me with the others under your perspectives. I am me myself, nobody could replace me, not now, not in the future. How I wish I were alone. No family, no friends, no ones, just alone all along. Then, I could do whatever I want, no worries on others and at least, I would not be troublesome to other people.

To be honest, if I continue studying mass comm, the Cheong Yin Yi you see, talk, play, joke with is not the real me. It will only be the protective cover of me. I can't feel myself; I dream what I can't dream about; They say live happily now, but at the same time, they want me to think of my future rationally. Influential people said, "Happy are those who dream dreams and ready to pay the price to make them come true", "Don't let someone else create your world, for when they do, they will always create it too small", "They can conquer who believe they can", "If you have trouble thinking outside of the box, then blow up the box", "I make beanstalks; I'm a builder, like yourself", "Dreams don't work, unless you do",
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it",

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams"

"So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon. become inevitable"

* We grow great by dreams, all big men are dreamers.
They see things in the soft haze of a spring day or in the red fire of a long winter's evening.
Some of us let these dreams die, but others nourish and protect them;
Nurse them through bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light which comes always to those who hope that their dreams
will come true.


Truly, from the bottom of my heart.

Say YES!

Hello girls and boys, women and men, ladies and gentlemen, anybody, everybody anyeong :) A bad news to be announced. My lappie needs to do a plastic surgery >< The screen cracked :'( I feel so depressed for it T^T Had a presentation today. It was really sucked. Obviously I screwed badly. I agree partially with what she said but not the confidence part. I have confidence when I was presenting but do I really look confidence-less while doing presentation? I mean, every presentation. I do not know how to show it but I am pretty sure that I have it! Maybe it's just not enough. Really feel like crying when she said all the stuffs. I actually felt offended at that moment. Feeling sucks. Lecturers are wanting too much and differently. They have different expectations and so, they teach different thing. I learnt the presenting skills in sem 1 and I find it really useful, but unfortunately, the skills seem not to be used in this sem towards this lecturer. Do they put themselves in the students' shoes? They teach different thing and expect us to change immediately and naturally in every sem or from time to time? Okay fine. Do what they want to fulfill their wantings lor. asdfghjkl-/:;()$&@ I miss my dream

我会想你的 :)

原来不可能会有个人永远陪在你身边，
当你觉得有感情了，
就是要分开的时候了。
这是，该笑还是该哭泣呢？
笑，是因为他终于可以实现梦想。
哭泣，是因为他就快离开大家。

或许，还是那句话，
顺其自然吧。