Syndra :3

My love <3

|since 18th September 2012|

Transparency

Do I look transparent? Why can't they see me? This is f*cking me off. Am I really that not worth appreciated by the people? Always feel so fed up with this matter.

Lesson learned: Not everyone notice you even you're standing right in front of them. Not everyone treat you like how you treat them even though you treat them with all your heart. Not everyone appreciate your effort on helping them.

FML.

Do not live with regrets.

Had a video shooting for assignment last night. I was acting as a pregnant girl, to raise awareness on teen pregnancy. The feeling... when I came out with a big tummy and walked through the crowd, was weird and uneasy. I felt the people were looking at me with strange eyes. I can feel exactly how an unwed mother feels, how a pregnant young girl feels and how the others look at them. The shamefulness, is complicated. The moments you hate it when you're pregnant, your partner dumped you, you're alone, your family dislike you, deciding to keep the baby or not, are confusing and irritating. I couldn't imagine if I was the one who got pregnant and went through this. I don't think I could stand for it. Don't get pregnant when you're not ready, you will only spoil your future if you're not ready yet. Do not be the one who live with regrets in your life. Be grateful, cheerful and play safe. ;)



The next topic,
I know a lot of people. I have friends. But true friends, just a little. And I hope you will be one of them. I did not know what actually happen to us, but I could feel the awkwardness and uneasiness when we're together (or I am just too sensitive?). I tried to get closer to you but I think I failed. I have no idea what to do to make us friends again. Yes I meant true friends. The one who I can talk with, express all my feelings, scolding and make fun of each other and would not get angry at all. And yeah, I have plenty of these friends, yet, I still need you to be one of them, sincerely. <3

Bloody IMC exam

Mid Term exams just passed \o/ The IMC exam was killing me, seriously. Two days before the exam, I woke up at 4.30am and drove to Uni just to study. For the first time, I studied from 5.30am to 9pm these two days, non-stop, excluded classes. I did not even have lunch and dinner, I forgotten about my meal, I could not feel my hungriness, I was not allowed to feel tired, to day dream, to stop for even a minute, to chit chat, to rest, to slow down my speed... Totally stressed out. But now, everything passed! I ran and shouted to my friends after I finished the exam. God damn happiness struck.

于是长大了以后。。。

【点击链接】谢和弦--于是长大了以后 


词曲：谢和弦


於是長大了以後
你發現聖誕節 沒有聖誕老公公
於是長大了以後
你發現吳剛嫦娥 都不住在月球
於是長大了以後
你發現王子公主 居然也有在陪酒
於是長大了以後
你發現課本裡面教的學的 都只能當參考用

於是長大了以後 有些事你非得要經歷搞懂
長大了以後 不想懂也要懂
認命的接受 不認命也接受 只是受殤還受用

於是長大了以後 我們都跟那現實做了朋友
忘記了單純天真 其實才是你的摯友
卻沒人能夠 卻沒人能夠 躲得過

原來這就是登大人 原來這就是社會黑暗
原來這就是小漢時候 整天夢呀夢呀夢
原來這就是登大人 大漢了後才知挫哩等
原來三分天註定 七分靠打拼 愛拼才會贏


“「你長大了以後，想要做什麼呢？」小時候我們喜歡編織夢想，現在我們學會了認知現實，微笑和眼淚，絕對是成長之旅，最真實的紀念品。
於是長大了以後，我們都和現實做了朋友，卻也更懂得，珍惜單純天真的自己。” 

--- AsiaMuseEntertainment

小时候，每个人都希望可以快高长大，

恨不得下一秒就变大人，

觉得做大人很好，

什么事都可以做，

不需要怕这个怕那个。

但有几个所谓的大人不会想要回到过去，

做那个，单纯，可爱，没烦恼，吃饱就睡，一哭就有人疼，的小孩子呢？

‘你长大了以后，

想要做什么呢？’

有几个是真正清楚自己长大了以后要做什么？

于是终于长大了，

却很想变回小孩。

现实的生活让人透不过气。

再也不允许出现当初的单纯天真，

现实的社会只会认为拥有这所谓的单纯，天真，

是蠢的。

于是终于长大了，

很多小时候不需要明白的事，都得清楚了解。

不管甘心与否，

都必须接受。

你终于明白，

以前‘想要快点长大’的想法，是有多么的愚蠢。

“原來這就是登大人 原來這就是社會黑暗 

原來這就是小漢時候 整天夢呀夢呀夢” 。。。