New year resolution

It's a bit too late to write about new year resolution but who cares? Haha

Just thought of my new year resolution (used to not have any as I mentioned in the previous post).

1)  Jog on weekend
2) Study hard
3) Be more passionate on Fashion
4) Improve my English
5) Get part time job
6) Spend less, earn more
7) Bring up Estrella Concession
8) Drink more water

That's all for now I guess.

Happy 2013! :D

Time flies. I am 20 years old now :O Ohmaigawd. New year new resolution? Surprisingly, I got no resolutions for this year. At least, I don't have any NOW.

I went to countdown for the first time, with le best friend <3 I went Desa Park City. There was a carnival and a concert. A great experience, love the atmosphere that everybody countdown together and watch the fireworks together.

Another thing that started my 2013 was, my phone is now in the factory having it's repairing service. What a great greeting from le phone D:

Hope my 2013 will be great!

Syndra :3

My love <3

|since 18th September 2012|

Transparency

Do I look transparent? Why can't they see me? This is f*cking me off. Am I really that not worth appreciated by the people? Always feel so fed up with this matter.

Lesson learned: Not everyone notice you even you're standing right in front of them. Not everyone treat you like how you treat them even though you treat them with all your heart. Not everyone appreciate your effort on helping them.

FML.

Do not live with regrets.

Had a video shooting for assignment last night. I was acting as a pregnant girl, to raise awareness on teen pregnancy. The feeling... when I came out with a big tummy and walked through the crowd, was weird and uneasy. I felt the people were looking at me with strange eyes. I can feel exactly how an unwed mother feels, how a pregnant young girl feels and how the others look at them. The shamefulness, is complicated. The moments you hate it when you're pregnant, your partner dumped you, you're alone, your family dislike you, deciding to keep the baby or not, are confusing and irritating. I couldn't imagine if I was the one who got pregnant and went through this. I don't think I could stand for it. Don't get pregnant when you're not ready, you will only spoil your future if you're not ready yet. Do not be the one who live with regrets in your life. Be grateful, cheerful and play safe. ;)



The next topic,
I know a lot of people. I have friends. But true friends, just a little. And I hope you will be one of them. I did not know what actually happen to us, but I could feel the awkwardness and uneasiness when we're together (or I am just too sensitive?). I tried to get closer to you but I think I failed. I have no idea what to do to make us friends again. Yes I meant true friends. The one who I can talk with, express all my feelings, scolding and make fun of each other and would not get angry at all. And yeah, I have plenty of these friends, yet, I still need you to be one of them, sincerely. <3