Do not live with regrets.

Had a video shooting for assignment last night. I was acting as a pregnant girl, to raise awareness on teen pregnancy. The feeling... when I came out with a big tummy and walked through the crowd, was weird and uneasy. I felt the people were looking at me with strange eyes. I can feel exactly how an unwed mother feels, how a pregnant young girl feels and how the others look at them. The shamefulness, is complicated. The moments you hate it when you're pregnant, your partner dumped you, you're alone, your family dislike you, deciding to keep the baby or not, are confusing and irritating. I couldn't imagine if I was the one who got pregnant and went through this. I don't think I could stand for it. Don't get pregnant when you're not ready, you will only spoil your future if you're not ready yet. Do not be the one who live with regrets in your life. Be grateful, cheerful and play safe. ;)



The next topic,
I know a lot of people. I have friends. But true friends, just a little. And I hope you will be one of them. I did not know what actually happen to us, but I could feel the awkwardness and uneasiness when we're together (or I am just too sensitive?). I tried to get closer to you but I think I failed. I have no idea what to do to make us friends again. Yes I meant true friends. The one who I can talk with, express all my feelings, scolding and make fun of each other and would not get angry at all. And yeah, I have plenty of these friends, yet, I still need you to be one of them, sincerely. <3

Bloody IMC exam

Mid Term exams just passed \o/ The IMC exam was killing me, seriously. Two days before the exam, I woke up at 4.30am and drove to Uni just to study. For the first time, I studied from 5.30am to 9pm these two days, non-stop, excluded classes. I did not even have lunch and dinner, I forgotten about my meal, I could not feel my hungriness, I was not allowed to feel tired, to day dream, to stop for even a minute, to chit chat, to rest, to slow down my speed... Totally stressed out. But now, everything passed! I ran and shouted to my friends after I finished the exam. God damn happiness struck.